The start of another long break and the ending of a long break.

Gotta enjoy this last long break as much as I can. Because, I know very well, after this break, I can no longer find any excuses.

It will be back to work. And I know that my bosses are holding back for the time being, and thank you very much.

Counting down

The day is getting nearer... am I happy or am I not? I don't know...Maybe now my mind is just too preoccupied with loads of things to know what is called "happy" or "nervous" or "Oh mine"...

Still trying to process my CPU ram to find out what I missed out...every now and then...during the morning train ride, during lunchbreak, during my ride home, before bedtime...every minute and every sec, the RAM is working non-stop, performing the checks...it is currently still working at Pentinum III speed, already an improvement from the previous weeks...give it until sat and it will perform at its full speed ---> Pentinum V...hahaha

Thankfully, he is a master of precision, a mistress of details and timing. I don't need to lay my hands on a lot of things, and all I need to do is, to tell him what I would like to have, and "ting" like a magic --> the perfect piece of work will appear in front of me.

Day by day, my panda eyes get darker and darker; my energy level gets lower and lower; and my voice gets coarser and coarser...

And...I am falling sick....='(

THE GIFT

Thank you for the gift.

Thank you for the answer to our prayers.

Thank you for the patience.

Thank you for the listening ears.

Thank you for the one --> the one whom we can spend our life with each other - a life filled with adventure, filled with romance, filled with laughter, joy and sadness, a life that requires us to fall in love over and over again.

Thank you for falling in love again.

Thank you for the dreams come true.

And thank you for everything --> THE GIFT

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The Gift
Winter snow is falling down
Children laughing all around
Lights are turning on
Like a fairy tale come true
Sitting by the fire we made
You're the answer when I prayed
I would find someone
And baby I found you

All I want is to hold you forever
All I need is you more every day
You saved my heart
From being broken apart
You gave your love away
And I'm thankful every day
For the gift

Watching as you softly sleep
What I'd give if I could keep
Just this moment
If only time stood still
But the colors fade away
And the years will make us grey
But baby in my eyes
You'll still be beautiful

All I want is to hold you forever
All I need is you more every day
You saved my heart
From being broken apart
You gave your love away
And I'm thankful every day
For the gift
(Instrumental)

All I want is to hold you forever
All I need is you more every day
You saved my heart
From being broken apart
You gave your love away
I can't find the words to say
That I'm thankful every day
For the gift

SHOWER ME WITH YOUR LOVE

Shower me with your love --> that is what every woman yearns for, from their man; likewise for the man

Our hearts are filled with so much love --> love that we want to share/give to someone, someone whom we can call our own

Life is too short to live alone --> to live a life with someone whom we can share our joy and happiness, tears and sadness with

To fall in love --> is the world's most loveliest thing one can ever dream of

And most importantly, fairy tales do come true as long as we believe and behold

Shower me with your love is a song that marks the beginning and the union of our love, a love which we will hold true and live forever

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SHOWER ME WITH YOUR LOVE

My heart is filled with so much love
And I need someone I can call my own
To fall in love--that's what ev'ryone's dreaming of
I hold this feeling oh so strong
Life is too short to live alone
Without someone to call my own
I will care for you, you will care for me
Our love will live forever

(Chorus:)
Shower me with your love
Shower me with the love that I long for
Shower me with your love
Shower me with the love I've been waiting for

I close my eyes and pray all my wishes come true
Ev'ry night I go to sleep
Until you're mine, I'll wait for you endlessly
Can't you see
Fairy tales, they do sometimes come true
If you believe, it could happen to you
Like the stars that shine way up in the sky
Our love will live forever

Like the stars that shine way up in the sky
Our love will live forever
Live forever

Shower me with your love
Shower me with the love I've been waiting for

Mad mad mad...

Mad at what?

Mad at not being able to balance the balance sheet...

Mad at oink oink for not being understanding, knowing that I will be going on leave soon and am frantically trying to clear the deadlines but still want to load me with more things...

Mad at not being able to relax and rejuvenate and beautify myself like what most people do...

Mad at not being able to be in control for some things...

Mad at every single things that happened lately...

Mad at myself for being mad with so many things...

Arghhh......

Arghhh.....

Nightmares starting to come...

Starting to feel the stress of the overwhelming workload...studies, marriage and work...And my gastric pain starts to come back today bcos of the anxiety...

Oh mine! How to juggle? I don't know....take a step a time then...

Just received news that oink's going to get me to work on something and the deadline is like by this month??? I was aghasted...overwhelmed...and angry!!! What nonsense is that? How am I going to finish all my work before I go for my honeymoon, which is like 1 1/2 weeks more only? I have yet to apply for leave to my honeymoon and I pray that she won't tell me "No, you cannot go because you gotta stay and help out." If she were to say that, I will flip.

But I know, one thing for sure, based on my records, if I want something, I will be sure to get it, by hook or by crook.

Meanwhile, I just pray that things will be smooth, according to plans.